It has come to my attention that I posted some about my cancer and then life became so overwhelming that I stopped writing on here. After 7 months of chemo every week, I was finally told that I am in remission. Apparently I had a rare type of Ovarian cancer. I didn’t even know Ovarian cancer was a thing. The doctors believe that it is genetic but they have only identified 2 genes that pass this on, and I don’t have either of those. So somewhere down the road someone brilliant will figure out exactly where and why this happened.
At this point in time I am healing, and recovering from the chemo. It did some damage to my heart that can be reversed, and I have permanent nerve damage. But I am starting to get some of my energy back, and with a few pain killers (read tylenol and aspirin cause I HATE what vicodin does to my head) I am able to walk some, which is good for my heart. So I have been walking lately, and hoping to loose some of those pesky pounds that I’ve gained sitting on my backside. Still not ready to work yet, but some of the short term memory issues seem to be resolving, and it looks like I may stand a chance of surviving.
Apparently the odds are about 30% on me living to the 5 year mark. I guess that gives me 4 years left. But apparently the longer I make it the better my odds get. SO I’m planning on sticking around to finish raising my little one and hopefully meet some grandchildren 🙂 There are people who have lived 20 years after this diagnosis, so I’m volunteering my time 🙂
I have changed my mind about a lot of things. I think knowing that I am not going to be a very old woman does that to you. I have decided it’s more important to be happy and enjoy my family and my time. So I have stopped listening to people that lie or give me grief. I stop them in their tracks and tell them flat out, I know better and I’m not interested. Its ok if they don’t like me for calling them on their bs, I don’t have time to waste with people like that. If they want to be good, honest, decent people, I’ll spend time with them, otherwise, it’s time to walk away. I just don’t want to waste my time. Besides, I have kids to play with 🙂